I wasn’t really sure if it would be okay to write this since it’s a little personal, but I wanted to give at least a short explanation on why I haven’t published all this time. I still get emails from you guys; asking me when I’ll publish my next novel and hearing from you always makes me crazy happy. My answer was always — hopefully in October or November. Now, that might not be possible.
Last year, after I published To Hate Adam Connor I went through some health problems. It was the first time ever I spent the night in the ER. Until that time I’d never even had to visit a doctor let alone the ER. They couldn’t find out what was wrong, it took them a few weeks to figure it out and with the help of some pills I was feeling slightly better in a few months. The problem wasn’t anything big, but I still couldn’t function like I used to. A few months more passed and I finally got back to writing Dylan&Zoe’s story. There are no words to explain how excited and happy I was that I could write again and that I hadn’t lost “it”. (You know…happy that what I wrote didn’t suck)
However…now I’m dealing with something else. I’m going to have to spend Monday night in the hospital, and on Tuesday…I’m having brain surgery. They say it isn’t invasive, but…it’s still a brain surgeon that’s handling the operation. I’m still freaking out. I’m still sad. I’m still scared shitless because like I said until last year, I had never been to a hospital. And surgery…it freaks the hell out of me.
So…yeah. I’m sad that I can’t write. Wasn’t able to write ever since I heard that I had to have surgery. There is a little bit of anger too, I guess, because I’m done with being sick. And it’s such a stupid and rare thing. Apparently, it only happens to 10-20 people a year and I’m just that lucky…
Did I mention that I’m scared. Even giving blood makes me anxious and now this…
This was a little personal, which was why I wasn’t sure if you’d be interested…I just wanted to let you know what was going on with me. I’m hopeful that I’ll feel good enough to keep writing after the surgery because I’ll be on bed rest for about a month after it. It would be really nice if I could write. I’m hoping I’ll get that chance.
It’s been a year and two months since my last release and I know people have forgotten me by now, but I want to come back, and I want to introduce you to Dylan&Zoe and I hope you’ll be there.
Wish me luck. Send some positivity my way. I’d really appreciate that.
Thank you for making me so happy by reading my books. You changed my world.